Lesson 2 Our difficulties are largely due to confused ideas and ignorance of our true interest.
That statement by Haanel, could not be any more truer in my life. I was a medical assistant working in a OB/GYN practice and I was underpaid, over worked, stressed unappreciated and getting frustrated. Decided in 2003 to return back to school since I had an associate degree in science half the battle was done, right? Nope, my sciences were not transferable because 5 yrs lapsed. No worries money wasn’t an issue work was paying for it, so I began with all my Science courses, I had no social life but It was a small sacrifice to pay. Here is the kicker, I never wanted to be a nurse, yes I loved my patients at work. I enjoy helping people always did, that’s what I did best but Nursing was not it for me no desire what so ever. Better money and appreciation from my bosses is what I wanted. (Ego). My patients appreciated me, I knew that, they always told me and thanked me for caring about their welfare they where the reason I stayed. January 2008 one class away from applying to Nursing schools. Bam! I’m struck from behind while I was trying to merge on a highway without a merging lane. That put me on a path of chronic pain. See I was telling my conscious mind that I didn’t want to be a nurse, had no desire for it and given a false impression to my subconscious mind. My subconscious knew my objective to be false and put in to action to take me off my wrong path. After years I realized that accident happened for a reason but it wasn’t until Master Keys lesson 2 that it showed me it was because my conscious mind was out of harmony with my subconscious mind. It brought it all together for me.
2.17 Haanel wrote, receiving any suggestions as true, the subconscious mind at once proceeds to act there on in the whole domain of its tremendous field of work. The conscious mind can suggest either truth or error. If the latter, it is at the cost of wide – reaching peril to the whole being.
Wow! My ego and misalignment of my harmony cost me 10 years of chronic pain and depression. Never again will I force my conscious mind to do what I don’t want. From here on out I will tell my conscious mind what I want my objective to be and bring my subconscious the truth and find my power within.
Our exercise in lesson 2 was to be perfectly still and inhibit thought. The purpose is to give you control over all thoughts of care, worry, fear and will enable you to entertain only the kind of thoughts you desire. At first try it didn’t take long for the thoughts to rush in tried 3 more times and finally with the help of an image of a brick wall and a message written on it, no thoughts allowed it helped me get to a little over a minute f no thoughts. Last week I was practicing shoving away negative thoughts from my mind but this week when the negative thoughts would sneak in they were replaced with what I wanted instead.
3.17 Haanel says, it is our attitude of mind toward life which determines the experience with which we are to meet; if we expect nothing, we shall have nothing; if we demand much, we shall receive the greater portion.
Now I know why loyalty was never returned to me, and I always would question why, when I have always been loyal to my friends. Growing up I quest I was tired of being disappointed that I decided to never expect anything from anyone. That way I would never be disappointed by anyone. Damn that explains a lot! Seems like I ended up disappointing my self all these years. No crying over spilt milk. I’m here to move forward.
These past 2 weeks I have been putting in to practice of putting my self in the present, not complaining about things as they are and controlling my negative thoughts. Learning to understand that my thoughts and feelings that I put out in to the Universe are what come back to me and seeing that my attitude, negativity, fear, judgements is why I been feeling so lost and disconnected from people and life. I’ve been wanting to change I just didn’t know how. Now I do! It’s true what they say power is knowledge!
I’m moving forward and even though I’m discovery I’ve been sabotaging myself I’m not mad or angry with myself. I’m just glad I’m learning a new way and I’m starting to live a new life. I’m also glad that I am an open minded individual and I like to think outside the box.
I always keep my promises!
Thanks for reading my blog and have an awesome week! Peace Norina
Please be kind to one another it’s not hard to open a door for some one or tell some one they have a nice smile. Being kind has no boundaries!