The price of comfort is denial of authentic self
Coming into the second week of January I was feeling my self struggle with my old familiar self. My old blue print of procrastination was sneaking in. What was going on with me and why was I feeling a little off? I couldn’t place my finger on it. I was putting off my blogs, I knew what I wanted to write for each week, before I knew it I was 3 weeks behind and only week 15 was in my draft section. After not posting in my Master mind I finally went in on Thursday of last week and said that I was struggling and Colleen had responded by saying that she wished that I would have said something sooner. That maybe she could have helped me, and that made me think about my old ways. Since I started MKE we had to set up masterminds and we were put into tribes in Maroc Polo where we were suppose to share our life experiences about Master Key lessons. I was doing that and I was masterminding with my new friends, than after Christmas it started falling off. My tribe seemed to fall off long before that and I myself shared less. But I was liking this new way of sharing, I share more in the major alliance where everyone sees and I enjoy reading and sharing. Why was I putting off writing my weekly blogs, or doing what I was so accustomed to, by keeping my struggles or weakness to myself? Especially when we are all here in the MKE for the same reason to change for the better, to learn how to grow in a more positive way. To search and find what we truley want our burning desires and believe in ourselves, so we can apply the knowledge that we already know and are learning. What the hell was going on with me? I had no thought of quitting, but was the thought in the back of my mind, that I get booted for falling to behind on my blogs? Than it would not be me quitting now would it? When I said I would get to my blog I had every intention, than my sister call and ask if I wanted to go out or go to the store with her and I go. By the time I got home, I have to cook or I was to tired to think about it. Lately I been extremely fatigued to a point of no energy what so ever. I was doing my readings and cards but skipping some sits, it seemed ever time I start my lesson with the sit my new neighbors would decide to fight and I could not concentrate on my sits. Its so frustrating.
We have the power to express ourselves; power is law of thought. MKE has given us the tools, to get in harmony, with the 7 Laws of the mind and doing the exercises. What I learned from the Jan 20th MKE webinar. That what I’ve been struggling with is my old life vs my new, my life I know vs the life of what I want. Lori called it our authentic self of the unknown vs associated memory the known, the life I’m wanting to leave behind. We need to make a choice and we have 3 to pick from. I can either attach my self to the feelings that I been struggling with, of feeling unstable and confused, can’t go back nor go forward. Definitely have been feeling that way and hated the feeling. Return to the known of my old blueprint, the negativity of my self, feeling lost and confused not connected to anyone, no thank you. 3rd choice proceed with the hero’s journey the unknown, finding my true authentic self.
Slaying my Dragon
Seems I have to slay my dragon within me to let my ego out my I the spirit that is within me, my authentic self. My dragon is holding my ego down. How am I going to do that? With the tools that MKE has given to me and by doing and practicing the exercises, by having the courage to ask for help in our mastermind alliance. I also need to relax and focus more so I can experience insight and harmony. We were told if we relax and concentrate we will see it more. What is it we will see?Vision, imagination, creativity, innovation. Seems all these confusing emotions I was having is a sign of me on the cusp of significant change. I’ve been feeling more at ease since January 22 feeling less stressed. I will say that not once did I want to quit or was negative on my self, I just felt strange and could feel me struggling but just couldn’t put a finger on it.
The action of beginning something, that is my choice! I choose to cross the bridge to the unknown and find my authentic self. I will proceed with the hero’s journey. I’ve seen change in me and I like it and I don’t want to go back to what I’ve known, it no longer serves me. Is it going to be easy, most likely not, but damn it I’m worth it! What am I pretending not to know? Am I pretending not to know I love my self, am I pretending not to know I have greatness in me. Am I pretending not to know how to apply my knowledge. Like Lori said, change takes work, celebrate the Law of Practice and master mind.
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