Weeks 17 HJ continues

The price of comfort is denial of authentic self

Coming into the second week of January I was feeling my self struggle with my old familiar self. My old blue print of procrastination was sneaking in. What was going on with me and why was I feeling a little off? I couldn’t place my finger on it. I was putting off my blogs, I knew what I wanted to write for each week, before I knew it I was 3 weeks behind and only week 15 was in my draft section. After not posting in my Master mind I finally went in on Thursday of last week and said that I was struggling and Colleen had responded by saying that she wished that I would have said something sooner. That maybe she could have helped me, and that made me think about my old ways. Since I started MKE we had to set up masterminds and we were put into tribes in Maroc Polo where we were suppose to share our life experiences about Master Key lessons. I was doing that and I was masterminding with my new friends, than after Christmas it started falling off. My tribe seemed to fall off long before that and I myself shared less. But I was liking this new way of sharing, I share more in the major alliance where everyone sees and I enjoy reading and sharing. Why was I putting off writing my weekly blogs, or doing what I was so accustomed to, by keeping my struggles or weakness to myself? Especially when we are all here in the MKE for the same reason to change for the better, to learn how to grow in a more positive way. To search and find what we truley want our burning desires and believe in ourselves, so we can apply the knowledge that we already know and are learning. What the hell was going on with me? I had no thought of quitting, but was the thought in the back of my mind, that I get booted for falling to behind on my blogs? Than it would not be me quitting now would it? When I said I would get to my blog I had every intention, than my sister call and ask if I wanted to go out or go to the store with her and I go. By the time I got home, I have to cook or I was to tired to think about it. Lately I been extremely fatigued to a point of no energy what so ever. I was doing my readings and cards but skipping some sits, it seemed ever time I start my lesson with the sit my new neighbors would decide to fight and I could not concentrate on my sits. Its so frustrating.

3 Doors

We have the power to express ourselves; power is law of thought. MKE has given us the tools, to get in harmony, with the 7 Laws of the mind and doing the exercises. What I learned from the Jan 20th MKE webinar. That what I’ve been struggling with is my old life vs my new, my life I know vs the life of what I want. Lori called it our authentic self of the unknown vs associated memory the known, the life I’m wanting to leave behind. We need to make a choice and we have 3 to pick from. I can either attach my self to the feelings that I been struggling with, of feeling unstable and confused, can’t go back nor go forward. Definitely have been feeling that way and hated the feeling. Return to the known of my old blueprint, the negativity of my self, feeling lost and confused not connected to anyone, no thank you. 3rd choice proceed with the hero’s journey the unknown, finding my true authentic self.  

Slaying my Dragon

Seems I have to slay my dragon within me to let my ego out my I the spirit that is within me, my authentic self. My dragon is holding my ego down. How am I going to do that? With the tools that MKE has given to me and by doing and practicing the exercises, by having the courage to ask for help in our mastermind alliance. I also need to relax and focus more so I can experience insight and harmony. We were told if we relax and concentrate we will see it more. What is it we will see?Vision, imagination, creativity, innovation. Seems all these confusing emotions I was having is a sign of me on the cusp of significant change. I’ve been feeling more at ease since January 22 feeling less stressed. I will say that not once did I want to quit or was negative on my self, I just felt strange and could feel me struggling but just couldn’t put a finger on it.

Initiation

The action of beginning something, that is my choice! I choose to cross the bridge to the unknown and find my authentic self. I will proceed with the hero’s journey. I’ve seen change in me and I like it and I don’t want to go back to what I’ve known, it no longer serves me. Is it going to be easy, most likely not, but damn it I’m worth it! What am I pretending not to know? Am I pretending not to know I love my self, am I pretending not to know I have greatness in me. Am I pretending not to know how to apply my knowledge. Like Lori said, change takes work, celebrate the Law of Practice and master mind.

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Week 17 Precursor to the Heroes Journey

Persistence
17 weeks of forming positive mental habits

For the past 17 weeks the MKE class has been building us up in baby steps. Each week we learned a new lesson, be it a lesson in awareness of seeing shapes around us and connecting them to our personal pivotal needs. Keeping our promise to ourselves to complete a simple chore for the week and write the next Sunday date and if we finished early we would continue to read our chore out loud and celebrate that we accomplished it. We also had to write one written plan of action each that would advance our DMP. Definite major purpose which we needed to search for and feel with emotion what we personally wanted, not what we were told to be or not what our parnter, friends or society wanted but what I, we, who are in this class wanted. I had to change mine, I knew without a doubt that true health was one and it was not just about me shedding my weight, but also about healing my mind and body. Spiritual was my other one but when writing my DMP there was no emotions. I picked that because I had lost my spirit within me, I didn’t understand what spiritual really meant, losing my spirit within me had nothing to do with being a spiritual person. So I looked back to when I was a child and I remembered I wanted to go to Africa to go on a safari, growing up I wanted to travel to see the 7 wonders of the world and other places, I wanted to travel, I wanted the liberty. So now I know what I wanted and when I wrote my DMP I cried. Every week there were building us up to form positive mental habits and teaching how to control our thoughts. That included reading lessons from Hannell, each night for that week we would reread the same lesson and than we would silently sit and do the lesson that Hannell suggested. In our first sit we just had to practice being still and just let our mind wonder easy right, the following weeks lesson we had to control our thoughts, not that easy at all, you should try it, that is hard to do. I find my thoughts still wonder when s in my sits but I now catch my self and bring it back to were it needs to be. One week we had to imagine planting a seed and imagine watering it and seeing the roots grow under the ground and see the first sprout of the flower, and than the next all the way up to full bloom filled with vibrant color. My first attempt I had planted summer lilies but during the sit petunias crowded my mind so now I have a plan in my subconscious of what will be planted this spring, lol. Each week we progressed with our sits and lessons everything from day 1 is carried over into our weeks. We had to form Master minds to form a harmony of like minds. They had us Reading 3 times a day the Scholls of Og Mandino each scroll for 30 days of The Greatest Salesman in the World. These scrolls are postive mental reinforcements and seeing ourselves in a different and unique way. We’re learning to give more, is to receive more and to forgive others who have wronged us no matter how big or small. Without forgiveness we wont have acess to the Devine mind. We’re learned how to substitute a negative thought with a positive with persistent practice, we had to go without giving opinions, I see myself and others are having success as we share our days in the master mind alliance. We are all still praticing each day, it’s amazing how much more aware we are of our selves. We share our short comings and our triumphs and we cheer and support each other no matter how big or small it is. There is always someone aknowledging with a kind word of encouragement, enlightenment or celebratory words. We all live in different parts of the world but we all seek the same thing. We will all find the power within, in our own unique way but together as a group we have formed a harmonious group. We’re being taught how to control our thoughts and be creative thinkers and have learned that thought fused with feeling brings belief in ourselves will set us into action and by us applying our knowledge and practicing it daily will brings us results we want to happen.

Small steps into our next part of the journey

This MKE class is training our minds with small postive reinforcements, they keep letting us know our subconscious doesn’t know size, all it knows what we feed it. We have learned that thought is the law of growth, what we think about grows. I been thinking about positives in my life and taking small steps in the right direction and progressing towards growing a better me and I like it. Is there still a struggle hell yes but that will be my next blog.

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